2/11/25 🎀Good morning princess Hey princess I honestly don’t know what to say to you. since you went to sleep forever I’ve done nothing but sit and think about you darlin. honestly I’d do anything to have you back and I don’t understand as to why you was taken away from me sweet girl but I promise we will find out soon. I’m honestly so proud to be able to call myself your mama and I always will. Me, Daddy and grandad sat at the table tonight and we listened to your song. oh baby girl I honestly miss you so much it feels like my whole world has fallen apart without you and I honestly don’t think I can do this without you . I feel like I have no purpose without having u led on me or without feeding you or doing something for you I hope your getting well looked after up in the sky and I hope you are watching down on your big brothers ,They honestly miss you so much and words can’t describe how loved you are and was . I sleep with tink every single night she’s wrapped up in your dressing gown and it still smells like you so much i honestly miss you so much and I’d do anything to just give you a kiss right now . I hope you hear me saying night night every night just like I did when you was here I’ve never met a little girl to break so many hearts everyone keeps taking about your last goodbye and I honestly don’t know what I’m suppose to do from here ,please give me some sort of sign as to what I’m supposed to do now . your bottles was taken apart from one and it’s in nanny and grandads fridge once the house is sorted we are going to go home and make sure your brothers are giggling and happy coz I know thats what use were suppose to do together. I just wished you had gave us a sign or something to just let me know I shouldn’t of put you to bed that night ,I can’t stop thinking about the last time I kissed you or the last time I said night night to you . Night night baby I Love You

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3/11/25 🎀Good morning missy moo, Hey baby girl it’s a hard day today your going on your first trip to Liverpool without mama . I honestly hope your not scared to go ,I'm frightened of you going but I know it’s what is best to find out as to why my princess was taken .i keep getting notifications on my phone about bows i was looking at for you . I Can’t wait till you are back in Blackpool and hopefully mama will be able to come and see you or maybe you will be allowed to come home for a few days ,In something called a cold cot it sounds more scary than it is don’t you worry. I honestly want you to know how incredibly loved you are my sweet girl and honestly if love would of woke you up I know you would still be here ,but I was going through pictures last night and I found the most perfect picture of your ear and it sounds absolutely crazy to say that but it’s because you have the same little elf ear as mama. I’m honestly so grateful I got to have you here with me for 18 days but I’d do anything to have you back home forever baby. I keep waiting for a call to say you have woken up and I just know it’s not going to happen but just that little bit of hope I’m still holding on to is what is keeping me going . grandad just got a call from the police there taking you at 12 to Liverpool I promise their going to look after you so good and not long and you will be back in Blackpool darlin and mama will come see you but once your back that’s when the next scary bit happens Im suppose to plan on how your funeral is going to go and I honestly have no idea I’m just waiting for you to give me a sign or anything to tell me even if it’s a piece of glitter or anything . hey baby your on your way to Liverpool now I hope your safely in the ambulance or the car or whatever you are in right now . I hope you’re safe and wrapped up in your pink blanket still with your teddy and your hearts . I’ve just had a phone call to say your allowed home after you are back and I’ve honestly never been so happy to just know you will be back where you are meant to be baby but your brothers won’t be here i don’t want them to remember their baby sister like that I want them to remember you as the small little Olive skin brunette you was and still are somewhere . uncle Olly , auntie Emma , auntie Hayley and uncle Joe have just come to nanny and grandads house and uncle Olly read out a beautiful poem and auntie Emma and Hayley sang u the most beautiful song . I hope your doing okay being so far away from mummy coz I know I’m not . I miss you princess and no idea what is to come next just sitting and waiting for you to come back to Blackpool I’m gonna try eat for the first time since you went to your forever home, gonna try and eat some chips better then nothing and I got to keep the strength up to keep up with your two big brothers . Night, night sweet girl I love you

 

4/11/25 🎀Good morning princess Hey princess it’s barely the next day and I honestly Can’t stop thinking about if you are okay . I really hope your being looked after really good in Liverpool and hopefully you will be back soon and we will know why you have gone to sleep forever . yesterday was a really hard day and I really needed a cuddle from you hopefully today will be better . i managed to eat about 12 chips yesterday . me and grandad had a talk before bed about what you would have been like if we had got to watch you grow up . he says you would of been just like me when I was younger and I’ve honestly never felt prouder I wanted nothing more than a daughter and I’m so grateful I got you . Im honestly so proud to be your mama and I know I keep saying it over and over but I honestly am I love you more than life itself. I just really, really miss you baby and I’d do anything to be able to bring you back . oh Olivia-rose you are honestly the most amazing and perfect baby girl I don’t even know what to say to you at this time I just want to talk to you . Hey baby girl I just had a phone call of a lovely women who is looking after you in the hospital at Liverpool she sounds so lovely and mama can come see you when grandad can bring me. You going for your first operation on Friday in hopes we know what has happened to you baby but don’t be scared I know you’re going to do brilliant. Hopefully after that we can then decide where you are going to go they said to either home or a funeral director I honestly don’t even know what I am suppose to do and you still haven’t gave me a sign. I’m not sure when I see you if I’m allowed to give you a kiss but I promise I will try my hardest to if I can. It’s your due date tomorrow and I know that’s going to be one of the worse days we have had but I honestly love you so much my princess. Oh Olivia-rose I get to see you on Thursday i miss you so much princess but soon we will be together . Hi princess me and grandad just went to the shop and there was this most beautiful little jumper it was white and had a massive red bow on it u would have looked beautiful in it we also seen loads of bows through out the shop and it was sad but also made me know u was still there. We are coming to see you at a 11 on Thursday just before your operation on Friday I Can’t wait to see you my sweet girl. I’m going to try and go to the house tomorrow I honestly don’t want to but it means something to grandad for me so I’m going to. Night, night beautiful I love you

 

5/11/25 🎀Good morning baby, Hey beautiful girl it’s just turned the next day. It’s your Due date how crazy is that we have lit a candle for you princess. One more day and we get to see each other I honestly can’t wait. The hospital said you are being really well looked after by Alison that’s who rang me today to say I could come and see you. Hey baby girl grandad Darren has just been mama said I could of done with a hug and he came all the way here to give me a hug you would of had that man wrapped around your finger just like I do princess you are honestly so loved my sweet girl. Hey darlin someone’s just come from the hospital and dropped off some stuff for your big brothers their going to write u a letter tonight so I can give it to you tomorrow. Hey baby I ate some what okay today I have just ate nearly a whole donnor wrap it wasn’t too bad but because I haven’t ate in days it started to hurt my belly. We are going to go find a pink fire work for you tonight I really hope we find one. Not long baby and we will come and see you. I’ve seen so many fire works tonight and one single star which is odd to see on bonfire night due to all the light so I have a little bit of hope it was you my baby. I really hoped you seen all the pink and purple fire works tonight. Night, night missy moo i love you

 

6/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl Today is the day baby girl, mama gets to see you I honestly can’t wait we still have a little while to go yet but at least it is today. I’m sat listening to music thinking nothing more but about you. I know it’s sounds scary baby but your going for your first operation tomorrow but don’t worry mama will be up first thing Saturday and me, dada, grandad and nanny will all be at home thinking about you so you are not alone darlin. You are honestly the most beautiful baby girl darlin and once this is all over we will hopefully know why our princess went to sleep forever. Im so happy I get to see you sweet girl even if it is under these circumstances and not what it’s suppose to be like I want nothing more than for you to be able to come home princess. Oh Olivia-rose you are honestly so loved baby girl. Oh baby we came and seen you today. You looked so beautiful. Not long baby and grandad will come get you dressed and hopefully you can come home soon. You’re going for your operation and then first thing the next morning we will be there.im going to get your big brothers to write you a letter that you can have so you know your not alone. Tomorrow is going to be a hard day for both of us sweet girl but we will get through it. Hey baby we found the most perfect beautiful shoes for you for your first shoes. Im going to ask grandad to go and pick them up tonight. Night, night princess i love you

 

7/11/25🎀Good morning baby Hey princess right now you will be on your way for your operation, don’t worry baby it’s not as scary as we both think. The only thing stopping me from being so scared is this will hopefully show us as to why our baby girl was taken. Just think though when all of this is over we will come see you and get you dressed in your beautiful dress and big bow and your beautiful new first pair of shoes. I’m not sure as to when you will be out of your surgery but I’m hoping they ring me when you are out if not mama will ring them. Hey baby girl you are all finished now and they said you are all snuggled up in bed with your teddys. We are going to come see you tomorrow so not long and I can give you a cuddle. Hey baby girl I really hope you feeling better after the scary day you have had. We are coming tomorrow baby so not long and we will be back together. They didn’t find out as to why this has happened yet but hopefully soon. Today is auntie Kiara’s birthday how crazy is that. I’m going to be putting your big brothers to sleep soon I would do anything to be able to feed and put you too bed I miss you mamas baby girl I’d do anything in the world to have you back. I honestly love you so much . Uncle Antony was suppose to be coming today but he just didn’t end up coming I’m not sure why but hopefully he will come a different day. Night, night sweet girl I love you

 

8/11/25🎀Good morning princess Hey princess today is the day i get to see you again. You are currently in a vest and baby grow but grandad is going to put you in your pretty blue princess dress your beautiful big bow and your frilly socks that go with your first pair of shoes. I can not wait to give you a kiss and a cuddle my sweet girl I’ve honestly missed you so bloody much. We are going to do your hand a foot prints today and even take your first proper pictures baby girl not just mama shoving a phone in your face and telling you that your beautiful. I’m going to get grandad to read you a book today. He has the most perfect story book voice. He use to read to me every night when I was little and I wouldn’t want you to miss out on that. We only get an hour with you tomorrow but I will be back up again as soon as we can baby. Hay baby girl about 15 minutes and we are setting off to come and see you . Not long baby and we will be there. Mama had your pretty blue dress your big pink bow and your thrilly White socks to go with your new first pair of shoes. Grandad got you dressed and read you a beautiful story book princess. You looked perfect in your beautiful little dress. Every time I see you it honestly makes me feel so much better and as hard as it is to leave you I know you are being well looked after. Don’t worry though we will come and see you again soon we just need to find out when. I honestly miss you so much already and we have only just left. Next time we come back we are going to take you picture and your clay hand a foot print. I honestly am so grateful out of every angel we got you my sweet girl. Not long darlin and you will be home. Today you was a in the most perfect vest, you had pink dinosaurs on it your brothers would have loved it so much baby girl. You had this beautiful rainbow sleep suit on that mama has taken home for your memory box I’m going to go find some pjs and slippers and bow for you today. Night, night baby girl i love you

 

9/11/25🎀Good morning baby, Hey princess, how you doing today mama will come see you soon, i hope your being really well looked after baby girl. So glad you have your pretty pink big bow on your head. I miss you so much baby girl. I honestly just feel lost without you like what am I suppose to do now i just feel so drained and have no idea what I’m suppose to do from here. I’m not ready to say goodbye yet. Im just waiting for a sign or anything from you to tell me what to do now. I feel so lost not cuddling or kissing or feeding you. It’s so strange going to bed without putting you in your pjs and saying night, night to you or even giving you a bed time kiss. It’s so strange going out without you there or going to the toilet without u being there. I honestly hope at some point everything gets a little bit easier. I really hope we find out why my baby girl was taken and maybe I might understand it a bit more. I keep convincing myself that you’re still right next to me in your Moses basket. I’d do anything to have you back baby girl I honestly love you so much. Hey baby girl I really hope your being a good girl. I just want to give you a cuddle and tell you how much you are missed. I haven’t done anything today but survive so I don’t have much to tell you. Hey princess me and grandad went to Asda today tried to find some pjs for you wasn’t successful. Still staying at nanny and grandads i don’t know til when I just don’t want to go home without you baby girl. We are going to ring tomorrow to see when we can next see you sweet girl. Hopefully very soon coz I honestly miss you so bloody much. Today has been a hard day baby I honestly miss you more than words can describe i don’t understand why out of everyone you was taken. You are the most perfect most sweetest little girl. I miss you like crazy darlin. Hey princess just washed your last ever bottle it was going all dirty in nanny and grandads fridge i didn’t wash the part you drank from though I couldn’t bring myself to do that. Night, night princess I love you

 

10/11/25🎀Good morning darlin Hey baby girl, hopefully today will be a lot better. Uncle Antony is on his way here, you have never met him but he’s Grandads brother. Me and grandad was talking about funerals last night I still have no idea what to do with you. I’m going to go buy a pink Christmas tree for you and it’s going to have loads of bows on it just for you princess. I’m waiting for a phone call today to find out when I can next see you baby girl. Then hopefully after that you will be allowed home. Then after that the next scary bit happens. You’re a month old in 3 days baby girl I wonder how much bigger you would have got. That’s gone by so fast. Hey baby girl we are coming to see you Wednesday I’m so happy baby girl. I’ve honestly missed you so much. Hey princess uncle Antony is gone now. He would have loved you very much. He did look a little bit like the story book Jesus though. I’ve not done much today but survive yet again. It was nice though listening to grandad have a conversation that didn’t end up in the topic of your last goodbye. I’m still unsure as to what to do yet but hopefully it will come to me soon. I’m thinking about putting you in your forever bed though so then once it may turn to go to sleep forever I can be next to you. Grandad is starting to become as to some what his new normal He’s currently sat upstairs on his laptop doing some work and it’s nice to see that as for now the worst is over till we have to plan your last goodbye. Oh Olivia-rose I have honestly never felt so alone even though everyone is grieving I’m grieving you different the baby i carried for 36 weeks, the baby that went through the hardest birth with me, the baby I asked so much for the baby I carried as much as I could the baby I imagined what you would have been before you had even took your first breathe the baby I fed from me. I honestly wanted nothing more than you Olivia-rose and I’m honestly so grateful for you and even though you aren’t earth side anymore i can’t help but still feel this connection as if you are still with me. Every mama has their proudest moments and honestly you are mine. Hey baby girl i ate my first full meal today baby. Hey princess how you feeling baby, not long and mama will be back with you. I went to Asda with auntie Kiania I honestly don’t know what I would have done without her recently coz she’s the only person I can talk to that understands from a grieving point of view we seen the most . We tried to find a note book so I could talk to you without typing it all up and I could keep them forever but no luck so far so we are going to try again a different day. We are planning your last goodbye tomorrow and the next few days apart from Wednesday coz then I’ll be with you and that whole is for just me and you baby girl. I miss you so much baby girl. Night, night Mamas girl I love you

 

11/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl Hey princess one more day and we will be back together. I can’t wait to see you princess. I told ‘auntie’ Kenzie last night she was honestly heart broken. I miss you so much sweet girl I honestly don’t know what I’m suppose to do without you baby girl. I honestly feel so lost and as if I have no purpose. I don’t even know what to say baby girl . Not really had much to talk to you about today princess. Not long though and we will be on our way to come and see you. How exciting tomorrow you might be able to have your hand and foot print put in clay and you will finally get a proper photo taken and hopefully we will be told when you can come home sweet girl. Grandad is going through some issues with work which is the last thing he needs but he will get through it we know he will and he knows how proud u and mama are . Hey baby girl me and grandad went out and got tea for everyone it was nice to have 5 minute away from everyone. Not long though baby girl and we will be coming to see you. I hope you haven’t changed much since the last time we see you but even if you have you are still my beautiful baby girl and I can’t wait to see you my sweet girl. I’m thinking about doing a balloon release on Friday for you but I’m not too sure yet baby girl. I’m going to speak to grandad about it . I ate a full meal today how crazy is that. 9 hours baby girl and we will be on our way to you darlin but for now it is bed time sweet girl Night, night princess I love you

 

12/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl Hey baby not long and we will be o our way to you. Hopefully you haven’t changed too much. Hey princess we are in the car and on our way. Hey beautiful girl we are on our way back home now. We have got your clay hand and foot print and we took so many pictures with you. I read you a story and we had a little dance. You’re getting another surgery tomorrow to get your brain put back in but don’t worry it’s not going to hurt and it won’t be scary. They said you might be allowed home Friday. But we will find out more tomorrow. I’m so happy I got to give you a cuddle and a kiss today. I hope you know how loved you are sweet girl. Hey princess right now you are rapped up in your bed with your teddy’s and blanket. I ate a full packet of crisps today so far. If they say it will still be a while before you come home don’t worry we will still come and see you. You had changed a little bit today which was sad but you are still honestly the most beautiful girl ever. Hi baby girl I ate a chip butty today would have loved to see you eat food it’s not fair that I don’t I ever get to see what your favourite meal is. Oh Olivia-rose I have no idea where to even start on your last goodbye. What am I suppose to do baby girl. I don’t even want to be on this earth without you never mind plan your last goodbye from the earth. Night, night missy moo I love you

 

13/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl Hey baby girl me and nanny went on a walk today. Mama has woken up so poorly. We have a meeting tomorrow with someone to plan your last goodbye. Grandad has gone to work to sort out some things. I honestly miss you so much baby. I’m waiting on a call to find out when you can come home. Me and dada has agreed that it’s probably best if you sleep over in the chapel of rest just because they can keep you cold. Hey baby girl could really do with a hug off you princess. I miss you so much. Hi baby girl not really been anything to talk about today I’ve been poorly all day. I ate a full meal though. Not long and hopefully you will be back in Blackpool and I can see you every day. Oh Olivia-rose do you know how beautiful and loved you are baby girl id do anything to have you back earth side my sweet girl hopefully tomorrow you can come back but as for now it’s just a waiting game. Grandad Darren messaged me today to see if there was any news on you and sadly I had to tell him no. Hey baby girl I think today is the only day I’ve not sat and cried for most of it but it’s not the end of the day yet. Hey baby it’s a horrid night I’m crying again. Oh Olivia-rose my sweet baby i miss you so much darlin. I don’t understand why you was taken away I honestly miss you so much and I just want you back earthside baby. Night, night mamas princess i love you.

 

14/11/25🎀Good morning princess Today mama and grandad went to funeral director to speak about your last goodbye. She was asking me all these questions and I didn’t know what to say. I think grandad will be walking you down the aisle. I went out and bought your big brothers a new pram. I would do anything to have bought you your first pink pram. I think me and nanny are going to go for a walk today darling. I miss you so much my sweet girl. Hey baby me and nanny and the boys are back from our walk we went and got you a massive bow so we can put it up for Christmas and we got you your very own bauble for the tree. We honestly love you so much baby girl. Hopefully I can either come see you soon. Your bauble has a little tiny angel princess mouse on it and your bow is big and fluffy and white. You would love them so much. I’m going to get some things to decorate your bed. I’m thinking candy canes and bows and glitter. We went into a shop and they had the most beautiful dresses. You would have looked beautiful in them baby girl. Hey pretty girl we are going to buy you your very own forever bed and guess what princess it is going to be pink your very own pink bed how amazing is that princess. We are going to get you lots of flowers and grandad is going to walk you down the aisle where me and daddy are going to put you down. I have eaten another full meal today I had burgers and chips. It’s so odd not eating while feeding you. I miss you so much princess. Hey baby girl today has been less hard you have still been in my mind but from more happy memories. I miss you princess and will come see you very soon. Goodnight my baby girl i love you 

 

15/11/25🎀Good morning princess Hey baby girl it’s cold today isn’t it good thing your wrapped up nice and warm in your blankets and your dress and cardigan and hat. Not long tho baby and I can come see you again. I miss you so much baby girl. Auntie Kiania got you a candle just for you princess. I miss you baby girl I honestly feel so lost without you. Hey princess i managed to eat 2 meals today. I miss you so much baby girl. Im going to ring tomorrow and ask when I can next see you. Today has been a pretty slow day tonight me and auntie Kiania went on a drive and we listened to songs. She goes away tomorrow on holiday. We are going to decorate your grave when she is back. Im sat watching your brothers fall asleep and all I can think about is how unfair it is that I don’t ever get to watch you do that again. We are going to go visit the place where your forever bed will be. I honestly can’t believe it’s nearly time to say goodbye baby. What am I suppose to do after that baby girl. I don’t know how to go on with life without you. I miss you princess. Remember mama loves you so much. Now it’s just sitting and waiting for you to be allowed home. Just been sat here wondering what we would have been doing if you was still here, i would be sat on the sofa and you would be led on my chest or you would be feeding we would be listening to task master and I would be sorting your bed out for you to go to sleep. I love you princess more than words it’s so strange not speaking or seeing or living for you Night, night princess I love you

 

16/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl, Hey baby girl we are going for a drive to Poulton to see what it’s like before we put you there. Today is just yet another waiting day. I miss you princess. Hey baby me nanny and grandad went to see where your forever bed is going to be. It’s lovely there darling and it’s not far so I can come and see you whenever I want to. I’m going to get you a little fence and some colourful rocks and your very own Christmas tree for Christmas and down candy canes. We are going to make the best out of something so tragic and Im going to make sure I try and see you at least once a week once you have gone into your forever bed. Hey baby girl mama misses you so much sweet girl we are still waiting to find out any news on you but hopefully soon. Hey princess I’m looking at stuff to buy your for your forever bed any ideas. I’m trying to find a bow made of stone so I can put it on so it doesn’t go all rank in the rain . I’m going to get you a wind chime. Hey princess not had much to talk to you about today but it’s because I’ve not done anything but survive i miss you mu sweet girl. Night, night baby I love you

 

17/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl Hey princess me grandad and dada have just had a meeting there not to sure as to when you can come home but hopefully we will get a phone call soon. Hey baby girl we had a phone call that you can come home or back to Blackpool. Hey baby girl we are on our way to get you. Fiona is getting you all ready. You’re going to the funeral director but don’t be scared mama can come see you every single day. Not long baby and we will be there I promise. Now on to the next scary Bit which is your last goodbye. It sounds so strange but I’m so excited to see you sweet girl. I hope you haven’t changed to much princess but it’s okay if you have coz you will still be my beautiful girl. Not long now baby and mama will be there. Your currently led in mamas arms in grandads car. I’m soaking in the moments we can make now even if it is just us having a cuddle in the grandads car. Soon we will be back in Blackpool and you will be going to a funeral directors. We drove past a sunset and soon we will play your song princess. As soon as we get to the funeral directors I’m going to speak to them about making you look more like you as you are currently changing more and more. Don’t worry though you don’t have to be scared. Me and nanny went into Aldi to get Fiona some flowers that’s who’s been looking after you and we found the most perfect thing to put on your forever bed for Christmas. The funeral director are able to make you look more like you. We sang all your songs in the car. Grandad cried again. I feel like I’ve had to relive that whole 30/10/25 all over again. I’m so sorry that I have to keep leaving you with strangers baby girl. I’m coming to come see you soon baby girl. We are planning your last goodbye sweetheart. We are trying to make it perfect for you darlin. Night, night sweet girl I love you.

 

18/11/25🎀Good morning princess. Hey baby girl I hope you being really well looked after at the funeral directors not long now darling and you will be in your forever bed. Grandads work ended up on the news how cool is that I know you would be so proud of him. Grandad is going to see if he can get you a horse and cart so you can be a proper little princess. I’m going to go to the house to find your bunny today princess. You slept with it every night so I want to make sure you sleep with it forever. I’m honestly so sorry that I’ve left you with more strangers baby girl. Hey princess I’ve not had a call today about you from the funeral directors so I will ring them in the morning. It’s so strange you isn’t far away from me yet i feel like you are. Hey baby me and grandad have just been to Asda we seen the most beautiful bow bedding would have been absolutely perfect for you baby girl. Where at Tesco’s right now which is just across the street from you which is crazy knowing you’re so close but I can’t get you. I miss you so much baby girl you honestly don’t know how happy I am to be your Mama. Night, night missy Moo I love you.

 

19/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl Hey baby girl uncle Caelan found your rabbit last night so I’m going to ring coop today and ask if I can come see you and bring it to you baby so then you can have it in your forever bed. I’m going to go work with nanny today. Hey baby grandad is going to ring now to find out when we can see you baby girl not too long now baby girl. It’s so strange knowing you are back in Blackpool you don’t under stand how much I missed you my sweet girl. I’m at nanny and grandads work with nanny today just helping out. People keep coming in saying how sorry they are this that and the other which doesn’t make much sense really. Hey baby I’m so sorry darlin but you are being moved again to a different place and this time mummy can’t take you but I’m going bring bunny to you on Friday. Tomorrow you’re going to be going to have some injections and they will make you look more like you baby. Don’t be scared tho baby i will be right here at nanny and grandads waiting to come and see you sweetheart. I promise Fridays morning i will be there with your bunny just for you baby. Tonight me and grandad are going to make you a little booklet for your last goodbye. Night, night baby girl I love you.

 

20/11/25🎀Good morning baby Hey baby today you are getting moved and you’re going to be having a couple of needles but you will be okay I promise. Just one more day and mama will come see you and bring you your bunny. Today we find out when your last goodbye is. I don’t think I’m ready to say goodbye yet darling I really don’t think I can do this. Hey princess you have most likely been and had your injections I hope your feeling better. Not long and I will come see you baby. Your bunny misses you so much sweet girl and so does mama I really could do with and Olivia-Rose hug i miss you baby girl. In a week baby it’s time for us to say our last goodbye. I don’t think I’m ready baby. Not long baby girl and i will be coming to get you dressed and I will bring you your bunny. Not done much baby girl today baby girl me and nanny worked hard someone that nanny and grandad knows called Paul and Lisa gave mama a pocket hug how cute is that. I miss you baby girl I honestly miss you so much my sweet girl I feel like I’m just wondering around lost. Last night I had the most horrid dream I had to relive the day you went to sleep forever i woke up feeling like u couldn’t breathe. I honestly would do anything to wake you back up princess you honestly don’t understand how loved you are princess. It like everyone else’s world is spinning and mine has just stopped . I sit and wonder what your laugh would of sounded like, how old you would have been when you crawled and walked and talked, what your favourite food would have been or what you would have wanted to do when you got older maybe you wanted to do Morris dancing or horse riding or do loads of make up. It’s just horrible because they are dreams that can’t happen. Im honestly so sorry you are being passed around baby girl. I’m sorry your going through all of this without mama but honestly if I could have been there darlin you know I would. I’d do anything for you princess. I really hope there taking really good care of you at the funeral directors baby girl. Night, night princess I love you

 

21/11/25🎀Good morning baby Today is the day mama is coming to get you dressed. We are on our way there and I’ve never been so scared. Mama has gotten you dressed while grandad has been speaking to the funeral director. We had a lovely cuddle you have started to change your face is more delicate and it’s peeling. We put a new blue bow in your hair to match as your had a little bleed and your pink one got ruined but you look beautiful in blue. I’ve gone to Nanny and grandads work helping nanny. Me and grandad went to the house today it felt like I couldn’t breathe. I found some of your clothes and mama has brought them to grandad and nanny’s. Tomorrow I’m going to work with nanny and we are going to go and get some clothes for your last goodbye afterwords. Grandad has sorted out your flowers for your last goodbye and he’s been brilliant helping mama and explain things and a more straight up way instead of everyone else. Today I was asked how you was I honestly didn’t know what to say luckily nanny was there and she said something so I didn’t have to. You don’t understand how many people nanny and grandad was so excited to tell they was having a granddaughter it’s so sad having to tell them you went to sleep forever. Night, night baby girl I love you.

 

22/11/25🎀Good morning baby Hey princess I’m at nanny and grandads work today. Hey baby girl I hope your being really well looked after I’m going to come and see you soon. I really miss you baby and I honestly don’t think I’m ready to say goodbye. I honestly feel so alone baby girl and I really, really need you. I honestly don’t understand as to why you was taken princess i would do anything to wake you up. I’ve honestly never felt so lost and it’s not getting any easier. It’s so strange to not have you here to feed you, change you or to cuddle you it’s so strange to not go and pick you out a new outfit or a new coloured bow everyone is telling me to be grateful I got 17 full days with you but it’s not suppose to be like that it’s suppose to be forever. Im so glad we got the 18 days and I’m so glad I get to be your mama but it’s not fair baby it wasn’t suppose to be like this I was suppose to watch you grow up and watch you playing with your brothers I was suppose to tell you not to hit and punch and bite them. I’m honestly so proud to be you mama but I would do anything to have you back with me. Hey princess tonight would have been your bath night. I honestly love you more than words can describe baby. Night, night Mamas girl I love you.

 

23/11/25🎀Good morning baby Hey princess today I haven’t done much me and grandad went to get new funeral clothes because mama didn’t like hers and I want your last goodbye to be perfect. I’m going to ring tomorrow and ask if I can come see you Tuesday. Im going to ask any family if they would like to come and see you as-well princess but no one is allowed to take pictures only me and nanny and grandad. I hope you haven’t changed much baby girl. I h nearly miss you so much and would do anything to have you back hopefully we will get answers soon as to why my baby girl was taken. Im going to go start doing your thank you gifts after I’ve gave your big brothers a bath. Ethan-Paul keeps asking when your coming home princess they honestly miss you so much and they love you so much. Night, night princess i love you.

 

24/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl Today I went with nanny to work again we left early because some man called Jonathan came to speak to us about your last goodbye coz he wants it to be perfect just like we do. Hopefully we can come and see you tomorrow. I miss you so much baby girl like it honestly feels like the whole world has stopped spinning and I have no idea what to do. I honestly would do anything for you to be able to come back princess I honestly would. Before your big brothers went to bed we sent you a lantern we lit it and sent it to you through the sky. Tonight me and daddy and grandad wrote your speech for your last goodbye. It is honestly heartbreaking knowing we have to say goodbye in a week. I honestly don’t think I’m strong enough to do this princess. Tomorrow I’m going back to work with nanny and grandad is going to call the funeral home to see when mummy and daddy can see you princess. We honestly miss you so much baby girl. Today has been on of the hardest day I keep crying over and over i honestly just want you baby girl and I feel so lost without you. Night, night sweet girl I love you.

 

25/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl, Hey baby girl I’m back at nanny and grandads work with nanny mama, daddy, nanny and grandad are coming to see you tomorrow at half 4 I hope you haven’t changed much princess. Not long now baby girl and it’s your final journey and nanny and grandad are going to walk you in the chapel it’s not a scary place princess so don’t worry. Mama is going to walk you out though and we are going to place you in your forever land. Hey princess today we haven’t really done much I explained to your big brother about your funeral so maybe he would understand a little bit more. It honestly doesn’t feel real that I have to say my last goodbye on Monday baby. Not long tho and mama will come and see you again. Night, night my beautiful girl I love you

 

26/11/25🎀Good morning princess Hey baby girl I’m at work with nanny, not long and I will come and see you baby girl only 5 hours to go . I honestly miss you so much princess and I don’t know how I am meant to say goodbye on Monday knowing I won’t be able to look at your face again only in pictures. Never in my life did I think it would have been this way for us sweet girl I was so excited for the tea party’s and the princess dresses and the big massive bows . I honestly didn’t think we wouldn’t have forever if I knew that night when I put you to bed that you was going to go sleep forever i would have never let you go but I’m so grateful for the time we did have even if it was so short. I’ve never knew what complete felt till you was born baby girl. Not long sweet girl and mama will come and see you only an hour and i will give you a cuddle and a kiss. Mama came and seen you baby girl. You look so different you’re still beautiful though princess and oh Olivia-rose your forever bed is perfect. I miss you so much my sweet girl and no matter what I say it isn’t going to help me understand as to why you was taken baby girl but hopefully one day it might all make sense grandad printed of a booklet today they we made together for you it’s called an order of service it’s honestly so beautiful and I don’t know what I would have done without him because he’s helped make your funeral perfect and he’s tried his best to help mama through all of this. Mama is going to come see you tomorrow sweet girl Night, night princess i love you.

 

27/11/25🎀 Good morning sweet girl, Hey baby girl I came to see you today with auntie Alanya. Then I went to work with nanny. Not long sweet girl and I will come and see you again soon. It sounds so strange but I smell you everywhere. 3 more days princess and I’m suppose to say goodbye to you 3 more days and I will never see your face unless it’s in a picture 3 more days and I’m suppose to walk you outside to be led to rest. I honestly don’t think I’m strong enough to do that baby girl. It’s honestly so strange without you and everyone is slowly going to a new normal and I’m just stuck in this loop over and over. I honestly miss you more than words princess i don’t know what to say to you but at the same time all I want to do is talk to you and it gets worse when the house is all quite and everyone is asleep i just sit and wonder what the future could of looked like if you didn’t go to sleep forever. All the tea party’s and the princess dresses and the bright pink bedroom. The reading a book before bed every night and the none stop fighting with your brothers. I’d honestly do anything just to have that with you princess. You don’t understand how incredibly loved you are. It has honestly felt like the world has stop spinning since you left the whole day feels like a blur and everything seems so silent but loud at the same time and the bows oh Olivia-Rose the bows on everyone’s house for Christmas you would have loved princess. I miss you so much and I feel and I smell and I think about you everywhere no matter what I’m doing. Night, night sweet girl I love you

 

28/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl, Hey princess I’m going work again with nanny today. Not much has happened today. Grandad got a phone call from the funeral home to say we can come and see you tomorrow and the next day and I can place you in your forever bed on Sunday. I miss you so much princess and it honestly feels so horrible not having you here. Your brothers are still poorly. Please don’t have changed to much baby girl. Me and grandad just tried finding you some rose bushes and I don’t know what we are going to do now because we can’t find any at all. I’m starting to panic now though because it’s the last thing I can properly do for you. Not long though sweet girl and I can come see you. Me and grandad found a bauble for all of use today. You have two one says merry Christmas Olivia and the other says merry Christmas our special granddaughter. I was so excited for Christmas with you with all the dolly’s and all the fake makeup and dresses and your first Christmas dinner. Honestly I don’t even want to do Christmas this year without you but I don’t have a choice because your big brothers love it. They have honestly been so resilient. I miss you so much baby and I don’t know how I am meant to get on with life without you. Not long though and I can see your beautiful face my darling. Night, night missy moo I love you

 

29/11/12🎀Good morning cheeky chops Hey princess me and nanny are going town today to have a look for shoes for everyone for Monday. We found them and I seen so many cute things you would have loved like dolly’s and bows. Not long though princess and I will get to see you. We are on are way to you now baby girl please don’t changed to much. I got to see you sweet girl and you haven’t changed at all I’m going to come and put you in your forever bed tomorrow and read you a story. Not much has happened today i let the world know about you going to sleep forever and I also did your order of service. I miss you so much and tomorrow is the last time I get to hold your hands and see your face and give u a proper kiss. If it could have been different I know we would have had it all. I miss you so much baby and I honestly don’t know how I’m suppose to say goodbye to your face and the next day say goodbye to you sweet girl. I just want you to know how loved you are and how different life would have been if we was allowed the future. Grandad and nanny would have spoilt you and mama and dada too. You have made all of us so proud of you princess. Night, night gorgeous girl I love you

 

30/11/25🎀Good morning baby girl Hey baby girl this is are last day properly together right now me and grandad are making sure we have everything to make sure tomorrow is perfect. Then I promise baby I’m going to come and see you and put you in your forever bed. I honestly don’t understand how we are supposed to to say goodbye baby girl words can’t describe how much I really wanted you princess but it wasn’t your time princess. Not long and me and you will get out forever once i come and join you. You will be the first person i run to when I come. I thought maybe you would wake up and all of this wouldn’t be a thing but I think I’ve come to realise we will never get our forever earth side. Tomorrow is your last goodbye before you make your way to a place to sleep till mama comes back. I put you in your forever bed baby girl you have changed so much darling. I don’t understand how I’m suppose to let you go tomorrow princess I honestly don’t think I can do it but I didn’t think I would ever have to do this. What am I suppose to do after this baby girl. I honestly miss you so much and would do anything to have you back sweet girl. Mama honestly loves you so much. It just doesn’t make much sense to me how I’m suppose to let you go and start your own journey. It’s honestly crazy to me how it’s been a month when it feels like yesterday you went to sleep forever. Night, night baby girl I love you